Break In review....

This Winter break has been one of the most relaxing and lazy breaks of my life...
my day consists of waking up at 11, Checking facebook, eating and then You tube.
Every once in a while ill go outside into civilization...
This break was the first time i really REAAAAAALLLY watched youtube...
seriously its the next best thing next to wikapedia and IMDB haha
Yesterday I met up with my best friend Fantasy...it has been 2 years since we last saw eachother.
Like always we laughed, ate good food and talked for hours and even cried a bit.
She is truly one of the best things that ever walked into my life. Its people like her that remind me how great God is for creating them.
I will miss her so much when i go back to chicago...
My CM has gone back to Iowa. I am already started to miss him like crazy. This break has been so short. Im proud of myself though because i feel like we have finally gotten to the point where we are ok with the Long distance. I love to think about the dates we had during the last two weeks. The thing I love most about our relationship is the way we can be so comfortable around each other. After 6 years I still get so excited to see him. Its funny because my friends are family are always asking me...what do you guys do?!
Truth is...we dont really do anything. Most of the time we just hang out at coffee shops getting into really deep conversations or heated debates. Sometimes we just drive around in circles...just because we can. I guess living in NC for so long we've been able to really make use of what is here...which really isnt much. Now that i live in chicago, i have to admit our dates have gotten so much better. I look forward for his monthly visits. Lately I realized how lucky i am to have him. Is he everything I ever wanted in a man...i am so thankful
I guess thats why it bothers me so much when my friends tell me its impossible to feel this way again...
I honestly believe that everyone has a CM for them somewhere in the world. Sometimes we run into alot of falsies that mess us up, making us feeling like they got away and its over....but no...its not. Its only beginning. I believe in second chances, new starts...hope in love...
so for all you people who have been hurt by someone you love..dont give up...there is better out there...waiting for you. I know how ideal and stupid this all sounds, but i truly believe in this.
Faith, Hope is all apart of love...
With no faith and Hope...how do you expect to find it?
All elements are needed to find Love...
If theres one thing ive realized over the past two years...its that the world is an ugly place...
its so easy to turn your head, and tell yourself that reality bites and go on living with a really pessimistic way of thinking...
but dont give in...dont let who you are and what you live for slip away...
everyday is a fight...
a fight to hold onto yourself, who you are and what you believe in..
It sucks because you dont know what to expect everyday...
some days are harder then the others...
but at the end of the day...
you win...you win because you can look at yourself and say...i am still here...still me...and there is always another day...
aigoo...
this post has gotten way to deep and philosophical haha
this is why im not a blogger...
because there is no end to my thoughts....
so i will leave you guys with pictures...
I feel like this winter break was a great bonding experience for family.
I realized we are getting older and time is becoming more and more precious...