Miracles....

For the past few weeks I've been putting off the meeting with my financial aid adviser for a looong time... I kept making excuses not to go meet with him because I didn't want to face the ugly truth. Two months ago I was having trouble registering for classes because a bunch of issues I had with Financial Aid. I had a 5000 payment that was due and some missing documents. I was really scared because I didn't know how to tell my parents about this. I kept telling myself i would go to financial aid and deal with it...but i didn't. I even came back Home to NC and kept telling myself i would call them...eventually...
Even when I got back to Chicago i kept making excuses not to go to school and deal with it.
First I told myself that I needed an extra day to "adjust" make into chicago mode (puhaha yeah right)
Then I blamed the weather and told myself it was just way to cold to go out (another lie)
Finally the guilt started to take over and i just couldn't stand it anymore.
So finally I literally dragged myself over to school in -10 degree weather (my school is located in one of the harshest wind tunnels downtown) to meet my financial aid director.
As i walked into the office i stood in line...
i let about 10 people cut in front of me...everyone thought i was being so sweet....haha...another lie
the whole time i kept praying to God to help me out...
Finally it was my turn and I sat down.
The Adviser looked at me and asked..."how may i help you?"
and my mouth just kinda fell open with no sound comming out HAHHA
The adviser just kinda laughed at me and asked for my ID number
I really didn't want to give it to him but i had no choice so i croaked out the numbers.
While he looked up my information i started to confess...
"uh, I know i have some missing documents and it took me along time to turn them in.....and i know i have an over due payment...i was putting it off cause uh..well i am confused with what this .....blah blah..."
the whole time im not looking at the guys face...to my surprise I realize hes not really saying anything so i finally look up to see him looking at me with a "whats the matter with you" face.
so I cant help but give him the "whats the matter with you" face back.
and he started to laugh at me and tells me that there is nothing wrong with my account, everything is clear i owe nothing and everything is fine...
the whole time i just kinda stare at him and ask a million times...are you sure? haha
i think i asked him to keep checking to make sure.
I was so shocked.
I walked out of the office like i just saw something really amazing...
it took a while for me to process what just happened.
I realized that God came to me again, rescuing me when i really didn't deserve it.
I am in constant awe of his grace.
He is always there....
Just had to get that story out there...

on a sad note....
Andrew Wyeth has passed away....
one of my favorite painters...
He is well known for painting the famous "Christina's World"...
Ill never forget the first time i saw that painting...
I was in 3rd grade my art teacher Miss Pots was teaching us perspective...
Something about that picture stuck with me forever...
I loved the way he often painted people with their backs toward to viewer. My friends pointed out recently that i also tend to do this when I take portraits. I like to call them "faceless portraits" haha. I know..an oxymoron....but there is just something about capturing a person with out capturing their face...but at the same time being able to use that moment...their every move, gesture to evoke some type of emotion or feeling which thus creates the portrait that doesn't necessarily inform the viewer about who they are...but...asks...who you think they are...what they might be doing...and why....i just love it...
it reminds me of what Mary Farmilant once told my class...."Its usually the pictures that make you ask questions that interest you...rather than the ones that already have answers..."
REST IN PEACE Andrew Wyeth...