you and I are on the outside...

polaroid film is on sale at central camera...
i must take advantage of this...
Its 59 degrees....
spring is coming....
for some reason my feelings towards Chicago is slowly changing...
I keep thinking about how i felt when i first got here...the excitement...the adventure....
The more people come to visit the more home sick i feel....
I cant believe im saying this...
maybe...deep down im not a city girl...
I cant stop thinking about traveling around the world....
Im going to graduate soon and i really need to think about what I'm going to do with my photography....
I know that if i stay in the united states..it will be really hard...
hard because i will have limitations...rules ect....
If i could i would travel right after i graduate...just take a million photos everywhere...document women living around the world in different countries...try to work with my friends on documentaries ect....
so many ideas in my head...but to scared to act on them.....
not because i don't believe in myself...but because of the sacrifice i must make to fulfill them...
i know i always rant about this...but i just hate being a women because of this one reason....
i want my cake...and i want to eat it too....

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11:03 pm

I love the feeling after you just wash your face...
the fresh tingling sensation
and then rubbing the lotion over the tingling feeling...
ah~
so nice