First week

finally its Saturday!
Seriously..I thought the weekend would never come...
This week has been extremely busy with classes and errands...I finally feel like i have time to breathe. Yesterday I ended the week celebrating my dear friend Christine's birthday. I spent the whole day running back and forth to the grocery store to make a Delicious fruit cake...it was totally worth it. Spending time with friends I realized how much I am going to miss going to my school when I graduate...
A lot of people ask me...Jane...when are you going to graduate? Why did you transfer so late? Why start over?
I think about this a lot.
but I realize more and more that everything happens for a reason...
deep down...i know that God has specifically sent me to Chicago at that specific time...and specifically made me go through all the stuff i had to...event though it held me back from achieving my goals on time.
Even though i feel more and more pressure to graduate as soon as possible...i try not to think about those things.
truth is...i don't regret any of the decisions I've made.
People might look at me and look down on me...
but it really doesn't matter anymore.
we all have choices...we have have chances...
its all about taking them when we get them...and making them when we have them.
I understand how lucky i am to even have to choice and option to start over and study what i love passionately...
i never really understood the value of education and art until i moved here.
Deep down...i think secretly i don't ever want to graduate from my school because i love it so much.
Its funny because I'm known for being cheap in all my classes. I don't have the nicest camera ans lenses...i don't even have a computer that is new enough to actually edit my work on...
but i cant complain...
i cant complain because in the end...even though i have so little...i know that i have more then i can ask for...
I realize to do what you love...you have to sacrifice a lot.
I have definitely learned how to make the most out of a little.

ok well on a more shallow note (haha)
for some weird reason...fall is taking forever to come to chicago this year!
man..i really hate it.
This year i made the conscious decision to really try my best to save as much money as possible and cut off all the eating out and shopping in my life.
This is going to be reaaaaaaallly hard...living in the city...
I decided to throw my self into school as much as possible so i dont even have to think of these distractions...
but its really hard...
especially since my school is located right next to all my favorite stores...
also..living in one of the artsiest neighborhoods with the best bars really doesnt help either...
i guess im just gonna have to crawl under a rock for a while...
we'll see what happens...
a few weeks ago i organized all my clothes and i was so shocked to find that i had sooo much clothes i cant fit into.
I realized how much money i would be saving if i just freakin lost weight haha.
so i've been working out pretty crazy these few weeks...
its hard man...
im starting to understand why its so important to exercise while your young...
even though im ONLY 23...i am starting to see how hard it is to lose weight as you get older.
i dunno..we'll see what happens with this...
it would be alot easier if i could just go travel to another country...
for some reason when you travel you just lose weight without even thinking.
i think its the rush of being somewhere new... it makes you forget about how lazy you are so you just work all your muscles and forget to eat and lose a bunch of weight without knowing...
i dunno...we'll see how this goes
i really dont know whats going to happen in the winter when its gets deadly cold...
theres no way i can afford a Gym membership in the city...
maybe ill just pace back and forth in my apartment for hours hahaha
run in place?
I dont believe in starving myself...
so i know that wont ever happen...