mixed feelings

ohhh mai gaaad
i am constantly on the edge of my seat...
sometimes i cant believe in still a student..
i feel like I'm working..but not getting paid...
projects after projects...
constantly running back and forth to art stores, camera stores, labs ect
and some how finding time to eat...run some personal errands...
oh yeah...and IF I'm still alive on Sundays...i work on my "normal" classes...ie history, lit....humanities classes...
money is disappearing with every project...
ahhh
and the worst thing is..in the back of my mind im constantly thinking about my future...
what happens after this is over?
doing what you love...is probably the hardest...yet the most fulfilling thing...
i dunno
even though i complain..
I love it...i love it because im doing what i love...and thats what keeps me going...
this year i want to be strong...
i want to work my ass off...make amazing photographs...
get out there..show my stuff...
learn new things about photography and life overall...
i cant wait...
2009-2010 im ready