bad circulation?

So on a serious note...
you guys may all know i caught a really bad case of the flu yesterday...
my fever has gone down significantly...
but now im experiencing alot of pain in my hands...
is this normal?
its almost as if someone has cut the circulation of blood to my fingers...
hmmm

yesterday was pretty bad...i laid in bed pretty much crying all day...
haha i know i know im 23 years old...im too old to cry and wine when im sick...
i dunno...i guess i just felt really lonely...
and the worst feeling is being really sick with a fever...with body aches and all alone..
i have to admit..
i had some flashbacks of the first time i went to china...
I got really sick and felt really alone...
i remember laying in my bed alone and crying really hard because i couldnt move and all i wanted was water haha.
i feel really bad for changmin...
i kept calling him like ever five minutes crying for water hahaha
wow...
finally around like 8 oclock my wonderful neighbor/best friend faith called to check on me..
i started crying...haha
i know i know...so sad i know..
i guess these situations remind me how vulnerable i can be...and even though i may look tough and hard in the outside...im just a simple girl alone in the city wanting someone to care...
aigoo...
ok...i have to stop typing...my hands hurt so much...
this is sooo weird