Hospitals...ew

I hate hospitals...
HATE....
but i have a feeling i have to go to the hospital soon again..sigh
while i was home in NC my mother forced me to go and get a full check up...
i was so nervous that i forgot to tell my doctor the most important thing...my random lump in my finger...
I remember coming home thinking..CRAP!
but i kinda forgot about it after i came back until today...
now that area is really sore and kinda making my arm numb...
ah..i know..i know...these are signs i should really go to the doctor...
just going...and getting there is so hard for me...
my body tells me i should...but my mind keeps screaming and running the other way...
i over think doctor visits...
i always think of the worse....
so bad...