Yesterday in Bible study we were finishing up the last two chapters of James and a fellow bible study member shared some of her daily struggles she faces living in Chicago....
as I listened to her speak..I felt so touched by her words...In that moment I felt God tugging at my heart. I knew that God was speaking to me through her words. As she spoke of her struggles I couldn't help but feel her pain...
later when I came home I kept thinking about the girl and what she said...
Lately I've been thinking about the summer of 2007...
I want to go back to that place in my heart....
I am starting to understand now that I need to stop letting everything in the past DEFINE who I am
I have constantly let all my failures and dissapointment guide my life and make my decisions about everything...
Some guy on oprah made the comment "in order to have peace in your heart you must find all the pieces..."
at first i was so taken back by that comment...
but now i know that yes..that comment may sound awesome..but really i think thats our problem..
we become obsessed with finding pieces...trying to put the pieces in our life together to understand why we are the way we are..why we do what we do...and why things happens the way they do...
but in the end...thats not the only thing that will bring us peace..
all the pieces in our life comes from God...and I have to have faith that HE is the only one that that can put the pieces together and create peace in my life...
so im going to try my best...to stop trying to understand...and think Why god...
but try and think of everything as just another piece to my "life puzzle"
and accept that not all my pieces will be smooth and beautiful...
but in the end...everything...all the pieces will come together to make something so beautiful and grand that it wont even matter anymore...
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